Sunday, April 29, 2007
Friday, April 20, 2007
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Example: I have a new job.
Where most people are excited and happy to start new employment, I am full of contempt and cautiousness. Most seem to want the opportunity to meet new people, but I am much too un-politically correct to be myself around them.
I sat in orientation today with a bunch of giggly, not really saying anything, everything is peachy type of folks today. I was nauseated. Maybe I spent too much time with people like me when I was in the service, but I can not see what made these people act like this. Add to the fact that I am in the corporate white collar sector now, but I was raised up working blue collar. It's a serious shock to the system. Everything is clean, and people seem to be too pussy to get their hands dirty with anything. This is going to take me a while to get used to.
The worst thing about it is that I lose sleep dwelling on stupid little things. And I value sleep.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
I am going to become fat. Not in the next hour, day, or month... but eventually.
I've tracked my body size since I was little. See, I was a skinny ass little kid, you know, I could use a cheerio as a hula hoop. I was always teased and picked on, but my grandmother told me not to worry about it because her brother was the same way as a kid and ended up 300+ lbs.
Well, in high school I still looked sickly.
I joined the military, and I slowly started my transformation. I entered at age 18 weighing 119. When I finished basic training I was 130.
By 2001 I was up to 140. Then came my 7 months in Saudi Arabia in 2002. That place sucked, but to there credit, there was a chow hall open 24/7. I ate at least four meals a day from boredom, and worked out a whole hell of a lot outta boredom. I ballooned up from 140 to 185.
But I looked good. To this day I have not dropped below 180 again, and I've topped out at 198 earlier this year.
Now I sit at around 188, happily.
So now the realization. I never thought I would reach this weight, but it happened between 24 and 28 just like my great uncle. By 40 he was 285. I believe that I'll end up the same way since the timelines seem to coincide.
I will be fat.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Monday, April 9, 2007
Friday, April 6, 2007
Example of a hot, yet bigger, woman. ^^^^